I Need Cheese For My Whine.

Not much has changed...:) I am still exhausted. I honestly have over extended myself and am ready to sleep- uninterrupted for as long as possible. I don't' think that is going to happen anytime soon though. I am sure once we get to the new house I will be laying in bed planning the unpacking/where to put stuff/what all needs to be done etc. etc. etc. I am currently wide awake, but so tired. I tried to do some stuff (clean out fridge/etc.) but I am just to dang tired...yet, I can't sleep.

I am constantly going over in my head what all needs to be done today/where am I going to tell the movers to put stuff/freaking out over the stuff I haven't packed yet/worrying about the floors- if they will gouged by the movers/did I remember to leave out enough underwear until I find the box that has them/ do we have enough room for all our shit.

That AND my body just plain hurts. No I don't have the flu- I just hurt. Hours and hours of standing/sitting on that concrete painting at the new house. Packing here at the rental (can't pack sitting down). Working at the clinic all weekend. Wearing worn out/old shoes has made both my feet tender to the touch- the worst pain I have ever had in my feet. My left wrist's ganglion cyst is now the size of a shooter marble and is causing my wrist/hand/fingers to be very painful, yet oddly numb. I fell asleep for 2-3 hours finally tonight, but I woke up and now my RIGHT HAND is killing me. If I am now getting a cyst in that one i will think God is smiting me. Hopefully I just slept on it wrong- but that is how the LEFT one started last year.

So basically I am a joy to be around. I am the most patient person ever. I am being the best wife ever.

hardy har har.

At least this week I am only working at businesses giving flu shots- YEAH!!!!! Sit down work- thank GOD!!!! I do think if I am going to catch H1N1 it will have been from this weekend. Lots of flu cases, stress, run down, no sleep, packed vitamins...the perfect storm.

Blah. I just want to relax, rest, and sit around. Just be. I don't care if I don't get unpacked until 2010 right now.

oh, and we forgot to call directTv to schedule the move. grrrreat. Sucks huh? Goodness knows I didn't get a digital converter box for my TV so I am just plain screwed as far as the sitting around a vegging out for a day...I really don't even want to read- just sit and watch mind numbing TV.

Maybe I will just go outside and stare at the Polaris in the pool. I can do that for HOURS!

Sorry you had to read all this crap- if I don't get it out my head just might explode-or my temper at the tiniest thing.

Take one last look you guys- this is the last time this house will be clean for a long dang time.

Early this week I went and watched Julia and Julie with some friends. We had a blast! We all wore aprons, pearls, and a badge our friend Lynn 'whipped' up for us. :) I loved this movie. If you haven't seen it- DO! It makes me want to cook. Julia Childs' story is amazing- and

Meryl Streep did a WONDERFUL job. Can we say Oscar?!?!

Not to mention the movie is based on a woman that started blogging!! HELLO!!!! Back before blogging was even en vogue. I didn't even know what it was- I still don't get the term "meme"

Just figured out the other day was "IDK" stood for after Sarah sent a text with that from Beth's phone.

I have hit that magical age of falling apart and not knowing what people are talking about.

:)

Exhausted

I am so freakin' tired. Yesterday I spent changing a door lock/deadbolt, sealing grout, painting trim...today I cleaned the floors for the wood laying tomorrow and painted trim. And painted trim...and painted trim. :)

I am so very blessed b/c my friend Becky came over and helped me paint trim. She did a stellar job, and it was really nice to have a friend over again to keep my company. It also really helped to get the job done faster. I didn't get the crown moulding painted, but I can do that later. I was mainly worried about the baseboards since the floor is going down tomorrow.

I have the floor people coming tomorrow...the painters finished on the office wall/hallway and it looks AWESOME! They are bringing the door back tomorrow (they took it to their shop to spray paint it) and that will be done. PHEW. The alarm people are coming tomorrow to get the system all set up- thank goodness it is finally going to be done. It only took long enough to get the damn phone lines working. I managed to luck out on that b/c the service man screwed up on the diagnositic- and ended up having to fix something on the inside. He told me he wouldn't charge me since I had been through so much (the day before I couldn't meet him b/c my car was getting the A/C fixed). LOL!

I have a marathon of packing coming up. I think my plan to organize and purge while I pack is going to go out the window. I think I am going to have to spend the next 6 months unpacking and organizing. Maybe we will just live out of boxes. Sounds lovely to me b/c after we move in I am not going to have any energy left.

Love to all. And to all a goodnight.

The Latest

The Latest

Current mood:aggravated

okay, so here is the deal..I flew to AZ tuesday night (halloween night), and got in at 12 midnight, got a taxi to the office, and to my car and by about 0045 I was in the car and realizing something wasn't right. The D4 light was blinking, the check engine was blinking and I was accelerating after the stoplight at about 0 to 30 in 4 minutes. It was bad. I pulled into the gas station. Got out and checked my oil and trannie fluid levels (all was well), got back in and cranked it and the lights were not flashing, but the check engine light was on. My car was acclerating normally. So I pulled in to the first hotel I got to (a very nice hampton inn btw), and checked int for the night as I wasn't going to drive 90 miles and up and down steep 8% declines with no cell phone reception for 30 minutes.......so, I had gotten a HUGE vente latte with two extra shots of espresso at the airport before i knew I was going to be staying in phoenix...and I had already consumed it..so I didn't fall asleep until 5 am or so. Then I had to be up at 730 to take my car to the dealer. I was thinking I had an extended warrenty to 150,000 miles on the trannie....So I got to the dealership who told me about 45 minutes and they would have my answer...so at 1030 he had my answer....Answer is........I am at 114,000 miles, and my warranty ended at 100,000. So right after the service manager told me that the estimate for a new traniewas 3500...I kinda started tearing up and getting pale and ashen faced...he got called away on another phone call, and while he was on the phone I got a call from the company I want to hire for the wedding --> -->and I was a little overwhelmed......the service guy was coming back towards me, and I was crying and telling the wedding people that I wanted to book them, but it would be a few weeks before I had the deposit b/c of my trannie- but I wanted to save the date, and would it be okay, how much was the deposit, etc. etc....so the service guy heard me saying all that and when I got off the phone he was patting my back saying "oh dear, you are planning a wedding also." ha ha ha ha ha. He said that he would try and see what he would be able to do with the Honda warranty people to help me out. he told me to wait another 15 minutes or so and he would get back with me. Well at 1145am I couldn..'t wait any longer b/c i had to sleep- I had to be at work at 7pm. SO, I had to get all my stuff- dirty clothes todrop off at the cleaners, my toletries, etc. outta my car- use the courtesy shuttle to the office I had to go and get to the office (the travel nurse company that I work for) so I could get my crappy rental from them (they are paying for it b/c they feel really sorry for me. ;)) get to Globe an sleep before I had to work....so. I get the rental, and 15 minutes into the drive out here I realize the speedometer, and odometer don..'t work...then I realize the check engine light is on...and the transmisson slips from 3rd to 2nd. HA HA..ha ha ha ha ha. go figure. oh well. I really don..'t care. I am going to take it back on Saturday SO back to my story. I get to globe around 230pm on Wednesday, and really don..'t get any sleep. I was worried about the 3500 for the trannie. My wedding, my friends wedding in april in puerto rico we ahve to pay for.....etc. etc. etc..... I was so tired by the time I got to work at 7pm. then I worked to 7am. I slept for about an hour around 5am when we didn..'t have any patients...but that was it. ha ha. I was freaking delirious. It was funny. oh, and I had got up at 6am TUESDAY to take lance to work....so byy the time I got off on thursday morning I had only had roughly 4 hours sleep since tuesday morning at 6am....AND 12 hours work. The sad part was that I wasn..'t able to just go to sleep when I got off b/c i Had to pick up my uniforms at the laundry mat (yes, I pay someone else to do my clothes..sad huh? but it is only 12 dollars...worth it to me.), and i had to go to wal-mart and buy some tennis shoes b/c i FORGOT MINE. ha ha ha. I had to wear dress shoes to work last night b/c I forgot my tennis shoes in my car in phoenix. ha ha ha. SO, then they called me and told me that the Honda warranty people are going to honor 75% of the cost of the replacement transmission, and the 25% I am going to have to pay will be around 596.00, plus the 49.00 for the diagnostic test. They are going to do that b/c I am not much over the 100000miles, and personally I think also b/c I had small breakdown in the lobby. ha ha ha ha. AND it will be warrantied for 3 years/or 36,000 miles. it is called a refurbished, but it is just the housing(casing) that is reused- the actual transmission and working components are new. YEAH! I am so excited that it is cheaper than I thought it was going to be. SO then I passed the HELL out on thursday morning around 930 am. HA HA HA. I slept so good. It was rough though. by the time my shift was over I looked like death warmed over, felt like death cooled over, and was not making any sense even to myself. I think I hallucinated a few times too. I kept hearing whistling. ha ha ha ha. They might have been messing with me, but who knows. I was majorly sleep deprived. SO, that is what is new with me. always something huh?

insomnia

insomnia

Current mood:lethargic

so, I have fiddled with the thing called a myspace layout generator. Can anyone tell me a good one that can fix with the background I want, and colors in the text boxes that I want, and everything still work? ie slideshows etc. Maybe I am just too tired to figure out what I am sure is right in front of my face. I had a really weird dream as soon as I fell asleep this AM, and now unable to go back to sleep. I will not go into all detail ...........I have Dean Koontz type dreams lately as that is what I am reading.....some weird psychogenic, out of body experience book- very good read- but making for weird dreams.

Anyways, tonight is my last night for this stretch and I hope it is easy and I get on my plane at 1110am tomorrow without difficulty. Work this week has been interesting. I have been pissed on (seizure), puked on (105.8 temp 2 year old), spit on (drunk/meth'd out teenager), groped (old blind man who really didn't mean it...I think...), and get this....told by a patient that she was going to report us for "having to much fun". No joke, she was serious. At the time we had 3 patients...two admissions waiting for beds at outside hospitals and her....so basically it was her. She was screened (triaged, or vitals and complaint taken), 5 minutes later the doc was in there, about 5 after he got out I was giving Morphine 5mg IM and Phenergan 25mg IM, and THEN as soon as I was done someone else went into draw blood.......she told the gal drawing blood that she didn't like us laughing, and talking and we were having too much fun and she was going to report us for that, and for being unprofessional and laughing while people are sick.....HA HA HA HA HA HA. She had freakin' PID...for those in the know that is PELVIC INFLAMATORY DISEASE.......hoochie rot, tuna boat syndrome, wash yo taco disease......and she was just a pain. I mean from the time she walked in until the time she got a SHIT load of narcotics (over medicated if you ask me) was quicker than most people even get to see the first person.

I ask- so for 7 days straight, 12 hours each day- she wants me not to laugh, or cut up or BE MYSELF? Whatever. I am getting jaded in the ER again. I thought I was over this after leaving RMC in Anniston, but it is bugging me again.....and I have to get it off my chest.....for those easily offended, do not read the following. This is my blog and I can say whatever the freak I want. For those out there that might get irritated at nurses or other medical staff b/c they seem to be "taking too long" or "laughing, and not caring about me"....SHUT THE FUCK UP. You are not the only person out there, and you have no idea what is going on. The 'nurses' you are getting mad at might be lab techs or x-ray tech that are just in scrubs. The nurses are probably getting your freaking medicine or starting someone else's IV. Perhaps they are giving a baby a suppository, or crying with a 14 year old that just got raped. YOU DON"T KNOW, SO SHUT YOUR MOUTH.

If you are able to complain and whine and bitch, then you are not that FREAKING SICK. Perhaps, yes, PERHAPS the nurse IS taking a break...perhaps she is going to the bathroom or scarfing down some food. well let me tell you- LET HER. She/he is only human.

Ever since a kidney infection last year and then urologist visits, cystoscopy and urodynamic studies later, I have been having to self cath myself every week or so. I have ruined the nerves in my bladder from holding it too long for too many years, and feeling guilty over people like this- so I would just hold it and run around taking care of everyone else but myself. NO MORE. I had a blood sugar of 44 one night last week b/c I was SICK as SHIT and still working and unable to keep much in me. Guess what? I still kept right on- sicker than 90% of the people I TREATED that night. Someone had the guts to ask me that night what was taking so long and I almost started crying...now I am just pissed. Tired and pissed.

So, sorry about the raving to anyone who is still reading this. I am going to try and get at least 4 hours sleep before I have get up and do it again. I hope I can stay asleep this time.

**Disclaimer*** I am not really normally like ths. I really do care, and I do love my job. I am a good nurse- just midly burnt out. again. Tomorrow is a new day and I have seven off and a trip to beach after this...then I will be my normal smiley, bubbly self

love to all